I fully acknowledge that some of this is PMS and some is just that it's been a shitty week, but I am a MESS. I really like my new location for my new job but I am EXHAUSTED all the time. I get up at 5:20 everyday and I get home at 5. I have 1-1.5 hour commute each direction. When I come home, I just pass out. Wake up for dinner, and then go to sleep again. I feel like I turned into the grandparents from Charlie and the Chocolate factory, which doesn't help by the fact that I'm still in bed, where I have been since 5pm yesterday. I was too tired to even eat dinner. I feel like I can't keep up with anything around the house and I'm just trying to FINISH it. It's really overwhelming. Even putting out the garbage once a week, or paying my bills on time, or having clean clothes is impossible. I feel like I have no friends (probably because I have no friends) to talk to except Mr. KK and he and I are having some serious problems. I feel like I don't even even have enough time to interact with you ladies which helps so much. I stalk the flat but I'm too exhausted to turn on the computer and participate. KK, I think you should see a doctor. There could be a medical reason for this. Low iron or thyroid or chronic fatigue or something. Could also be depression. Might be nothing, but it's better to find out for sure, right? Then if it IS something, you can get treatment.
Back to Mr. KK. We are just...not on the same page. At all. And it totally all boils down to us being completely different people. I've known that forever, but this is the first real instance where I feel a divide between us. He is an extrovert, I'm an introvert- and in times of extreme stress, never the two shall meet. He is BEYOND stressed at work and all he wants to do is spend time with me. I just can't. I am just too tired. And I feel terrible because I'm his only friend up here too. So he's lonely and I'm annoyed that he wont just leave me alone so I can re-energize. I really don't know what to do. This was never an issue when he lived closer to his friends and family for obvious reasons. But I'm starting to resent that he needs me to de-stress. It just feels like one more thing I have to do, you know? Like another chore. I don't LIKE being his therapist. When he's stressed, he picks fights and I'm getting to the point where I don't care if I hurt his feelings. I used to just "listen" and give advice -even though he didn't want advice, he just wants to vent- and then it would pass. I just don't want him to need me like that. And it's not just him telling me about his day- we all know his family has a lot of mental illnesses and I feel like he wants me to diagnose him. He has like...Munchhausen's for mental illnesses or something. I don't know. Maybe I should tell him that as my diagnosis.
I'm just so overwhelmed with everything. Thank god we don't have children. They would have been taken away by child services for extreme neglect or something.Has Mr. KK ever had an evaluation? If he's that worried about mental illness maybe he should. Then he can either put his mind at ease that he's ok, or get treatment if he's not.
Obviously I'm not the best person to be giving relationship advice, but can you make a deal with Mr. KK that if he gives you a night to yourself that you'll spend a night doing something he likes to do? Bike riding or walking around or whatever? Or maybe Mr. KK can take a short vacation back home to spend time with his family while you take some time at home to re-energize yourself?