I'm a latecomer to the Twilight and Rob craze. Until right before New Moon came out last month, I knew almost nothing about Twilight or Rob. Sure, I had a peripheral knowledge of it all. . .I haven't been living on another planet after all. There was a glance at a magazine cover of 'Edward & Bella' (didn't know it was edward & bella at the time, of course) and maybe I caught a trailer on TV for Twilight last year. I knew it was a vampire/love story/teenager thing and that it was based on some books. But I was a new business owner, mother of three kids, super busy....no time for teen fiction or really any kind of fiction! So I lived my life in twilight ignorance until the New Moon press junket began. I began seeing New Moon stuff (and Rob's hotness) everywhere. Suddenly, I couldn't ignore it anymore. "What the hell is this all about?!" I asked myself, "This thing is huge; maybe I ought to check it out." After all, I have always had a thing for vampires. . .George Hamilton was a hottie in "Love at First Bite" when I was a teen. Yes, I'm giving away my age with that statement. That's ok....I'm 41 and loving it...thus my screen name Loving40s. And I was an English major and had to take a semester of Teen Literature. I read about 30 books of adolescent lit and loved it all!
Ok, that's it....I ran to walmart and bought Twilight. I began reading...and reading....and reading. THAT IS WHEN IT BEGAN! I couldn't stop. My house now looked like a cyclone had hit, my work began to pile up (i work from home), and I began to spend more time on the internet than I have in the past 5 years combined googling all things Twilight. Ok, so that wasn't completely weird. I love to read and though I haven't allowed myself that indulgence very often since i became a mother 11 years ago, I have on occassion lost myself in a good book and done nothing but read until the book is finished. That's normal. But as I googled all things Twilight, of course, I came across many pictures and videos of Rob Pattinson. This is when it began....WHO IS THIS MAN!? He cannot be only 23 - he seems so much older. I'd seen pictures of him before (pre-twilight discovery)...thought he was handsome but never really took a second look.
BUt after seeing/reading about a 100 interviews of him, I was bedazzled. Obviously he is beyond handsome, sexy, physcially desirable. But "my problem" began when I began to get know him in his interviews. This is when the spell began. His laugh, his sense of humor, his down to earth way of talking with the interviewers, his talent, his thoughtful, real answers, his love for music and reading while not good at sports (hmmm, that sounds familiar). I could not get enough of him. WHAT IS GOING ON HERE? I have not had this kind of reaction to a celebrity since I was 15! I'm serious! As an adult, I have had the hots for Brad Pitt and Matthew McConaughey, but I never googled them or read every interview on earth. If I happened to catch a picture or interview, I'd think OMG he's so hot, but that was it. I'm not normally a 'star struck' kind of gal. But this Robert Pattinson creature has somehow cast a spell on me and I'm acting like I"M 15 again. I don't have TIME to act like I'm 15! Really, right now as I type this, I have about 7 important things I should be doing instead. It's actually pissing me off that I can't seem to control myself.
Ok, so back to Twilight. As soon as I finished it, I ran out and bought the rest of the books and inhaled them all in less than a week. I went to see New Moon opening weekend by myself. So I love the Twilight story - it is great escapism - but I wouldn't say I'm obsessed with Twilight. I don't read the fan fiction; I would never go to a Twilight convention or Twilight Cruise. Of course, I adore the character Edward...he's perfect. But it is Robert that I am gaga over. This is my little secret. Only my husband knows that I love Twilight because I barely spoke to him while I read all four books! and he actaully watched Twilight with me and he liked it! And he knows I think Robert is hot, but that is the extent of it as far s he knows. Nobody knows that I google Robert every morning to find out what he's' up to, that I look at pictures or video of him everyday just so I can feel closer to him, that I think about him incessantly. Driving down the street, shopping, doing the dishes....He's always there. It is like when you are dating somebody new and falling in love and you think about them all the time!
THIS IS RIDICULOUS!
I SOUND like a crazy stalker obsessed weirdo who can't get a grip on reality. But actaully I am a college degreed business owner with no history of mental illness (thank you very much) who has been married for 12 years and has 3 boys, ages 11, 9, and 6. And I have NEVER been attracted to a man in his early 20's. What is THAT?! Yes, I can look at younger men and even teens like Taylor Lautner and think 'He's adorable; I can see why the girls like him" and that is it! Zac Effron...cutie pie...but only a boy in my eyes. But Rob...to me he doesn't look or act 23! And then today in my search for my Rob addiction fix, I stubled upon LTR. I laughed so hard reading some of your posts, especially an older thread from May about Rob & cougars. OMG, I am not alone! Others I can talk to who won't think I have lost my mind! And sorry for the HUGE introduction but it was more for me than for you all....I have had all this pent up in me for awhile with nobody to talk to so it was a bit cathartic to write. I found Twilight Moms but that wasn't the right fit because I'm Robsessed not Twilight obsessed.