I’m kicking off our day of last LTT letters ever (yes, this day has come). Moon’s post will be up at 10 am and you can catch our last, joint letter at 12 pm ET.
As I’ve thought about you coming to an end, the transition of LTT to That’s Normal and this chapter closing in my life, I’ve been reflecting on how much I’ve changed over the past few years and what I’ve learned.
Here are a few examples:
I gained 5 pounds. Let’s say that’s from stress-eating during all the “ARE THEY AREN’T THEY DOING IT ON THE BEAR-SKIN RUG” questioning I’ve done. Back when this started I was the most perfect age of 25, now I’m about to turn 30 and will cease to exist (<– yep I’m being that girl). When we started all this I had short hair and now my hair is long. Thats all. That’s the only way I’ve changed.
No that’s just the superficial stuff- I’ve changed big time on a deeper level. I think back to UC in 2008– and I’m much more confident. In the past I wasn’t a risk-taker. These days… I’m less afraid of risks & the unknown. LTT has taught me so many things about what I’m good at (and NOT good at) and I know a ton more than I ever realized! My job changed because of LTT. I actually get paid to do marketing online which is a skill I learned mostly from running a blog.
I’ve learned that some of the (okay a lot of the) Twilight fans are weird. Really weird. But everyone comes to Twilight with a story- and that theme is the same. “I had a hard time in life & Twilight picked me up. Twilight reminded me of love or better days. Twilight introduced me to people who got me through.” And that is not weird. That’s beautiful.
I’ve made countless friends online. I used to think only weirdos met online, but I was wrong. Normal, amazing, exciting, talented and beautiful people meet online. And I’m so glad they do because I now have friends all over the world!
I met some famous people– and my most favorite meeting by far was meeting Stephenie Meyer. I still remember the day she gave LTT a shout out on her blog like it was yesterday. And then the day when we got the email from her assistant-life handler Meghan inviting us to interview her- I can remember where I was standing when I called Moon. And meeting Stephenie for the first time was an incredible experience- because she was so normal and down-to-earth. And liked us. I still don’t understand it! I liked Stephenie before I met her because she created this world I love so dearly, but I like her even more now that I’ve met her, hugged her and got to apologize for nick-naming her husband after Mexican food. Stephenie has always treated us like we’re old pals catching up over drinks (virgin for her!) at The Olive Garden.
I met others with similar stories When LTT began I was coming out of a really dark place– I shared my story on our 1st anniversary. But I have years that I don’t remember before Twilight. And LTT was my distraction– a distraction that aided my healing.
One of the biggest surprises with LTT was meeting as many people as I have that have lost parents– I feel especially close to girls who have lost their mothers when they were far too young too, but losing a parent long before their time is so similar no matter the circumstance. My life has been enriched by these amazing women.
I have an incredibly supportive husband who not only tolerated the many many hours and late nights and bursts of laughter from the other room and screams of joy (and sometimes horror) over things he’ll never really understand, but embraced LTT. He came with me to midnight showings, he made drinks for our parties, he met, entertained and came to love so many of my LTT friends. Very few husbands would be as supportive as Mr. Choice has been, and I’m a very lucky girl!
Moon and I are stuck together forever. Moon and I were friends before this– we loved chatting online about old school memories or making fun of stuff we both loved to hate, but I can’t imagine LTT with anyone but her. LTT wouldn’t exist with anyone but her. We went from friends who probably would have seen each other a few times over our lifetimes to close friends who feel weird when we go more than a day without talking.
Moon is one of my dearest and closest friends- we have memories together that no one else has. We’ve had moments of just looking at each other as if to say “Is this our life?” and know the other one gets it. She truly is my Twi-soulmate, and no matter if we give up on TN (not happening!) and life sweeps us up and keeps us from our daily chats, I know that we will forever be able to pick up the phone or grab endless breadsticks and reminisce about this life-changing experience we both went through together.
And You. I could gush over you forever and forever. Yes you. And I did. But Moon and I are going to share that part together in our joint letter.
So for one last time. Thank you, Twilight. For everything.
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